Tuesday, September 01, 2009
i have a mad craving for beef & vegetable wheat cake with hot sweetened soy milk.
i have a craving for steamed fried pork buns.
i really want some yogurt with some strawberry & mochi topping.
i wish i can get a long tight hug from him right now.
6:01 PM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
summer is passing me by and it's the end of june already.
the world is spinning, the clouds are passing, what is there to worry about
no job, no school, no income - no money. what do i do?
no motivation, no hiring, no spots
what can i do? i just can't wait until VBS where I can make use of myself and be with children, do my job, be happy and work. that's my job. working with kids are so fun, being apart of them and teaching them is such a blessing of opportunity.
everything seems to be very passive, very weak, very slow at times.
some things go fast, and some slow. i can't really explain myself if only i can stop those moments and show you.
this weekend i spent a lot of time with my family, relatives, and little brother. family time is such a wonderful thing. the bonding, the gathering, food, laughter, and interaction in each others lives again. i really miss the sleepovers, jokes, video games, and talks at night with my cousins. i really love my family because we're able to be so open and close about everything.
with my little brother, he's growing up so fast. when i think of it, it's kinda slow, but looking at him when i visit him again, there's always something new. now he's learning how to talk. he can say a few words. he runs so fast around the house back and forth. i love playing with him, he makes me so happy. he's just so adorable --
sunday was church. it wasn't the usual as before but the presence felt different. worship was like a lack of energy, lack of God, lack of power, a weak uplift, a sad song, an unmoving praise... i don't know why but it just didn't feel good. as much as i interacted, sang, and prayed - i felt a call to do something about it. something more moving, something that brings me closer to God.. in fact, i must. there's something that i can do... right?
what am i doing here? i feel so useless. nothing productive, so lazy, so tired, so sleepy.. again. however, the sleep, the movies, the laziness, makes me feel more relaxed.
yesterday, after a long nap after dinner - dennis and i watched like 3 dvds at home which felt really good. it was a good time (:
what a summer..
4:59 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
new layout.
2:05 PM
